Blue day

Today, I really feel blue. I dont know why, maybe because of family problem, maybe because of somebody always forget their promises to me. I just feel that I wanna to change myself into a bad bad girl so that I can give some "colour" to them and let them know I am not a people that their can bully. To be frank, I am a discipline girl, all I plan, I will make sure it is done. But there is always some people pop out and stop me from doing the thing. There is never a courage word that come out from their mouth. What they say was something that can make you feel that yourself is a rubbish. How long I can stand for this kind of life? I would always planning to run away from this kind of life. Hope that god will mercy me and help me pass through this blue blue day.